A Brand New Day

A New Tradition,
A Brand New Gold,
So Pay Attention (:

I'd like to first start off by saying I dislike my Junior Year Schedule very much. I feel like my classes have the most random people in it. I am in too many classes with Lauren. I have math during my favorite off period, which is fourth if any of you guys wouldn't have guessed already and next year I won't have early release due to yearbook. Blah, I love school, but this is too much. Mr. Cote is a great teacher and all but two whole periods with him is again too much. I have never been so quiet in math ever, till 5th period hit me. I was almost in full dream mode.
Anyways, I'd like to announce that this upcoming Friday is our First Home Football Friday Night. I am beyond excited. I love cheering on our Varsity boys (: They've improved a lot from the end of the year to now. I mean this year is a whole new year full of new tradition. Changes for the better.

So James Dylan and I are still dating. I love him very much and couldn't be any happier. He probably thinks that I'm mad at him 24/7, but it's not anywhere close to that. I am a very complicated person and I hope he understands that. I know a lot of you guys know what I mean. I'm a freakin' girl for crying out loud what do you expect? No I'm not high maintenance, so don't get my wrong. I'm just an extremely complicated person. Until you've really learned my ways you'll probably hate my guts. But I guess I'm trying to say only the good ones stay to really figure me out. If you leave when things get hard, then I know for a fact you won't be there in the end.

I'm going to get off here early, It's 1:30am and I have school in less than 8 hours. Uh-oh.
Goodnight Bloggers (:

Your future shines bright.

Your past will always be remembered.
The present won't always go the way you want it to.
Your future on the other hand can be anything your heart desires.

Cheerleading has been nonstop. A lot hard work, dedication, teamwork, and spirit. We have to be physically and mentally in shape. You've got to want to be there. Our football team has been looking very good. And I'm definitely excited for this school year.

You do things you may or may not regret. That's your past. Plan and simple. And the things you have done have led up to be the reasons why you do the things you are doing now. The things you are doing now will one day lead up to be the reason why you do things in the future. You may or may not plan your future out, but just remember that you shape your future. What you do today may determine what you do tomorrow. You never know what the future will hold, because once you get there it will be the present. The present is yesterdays future.

I absolutely love hosting Pee Wee Camp. I enjoy watching little girls do what they love. It's crazy that so many little girls look up to us. We forget this every year until this camp comes around. Good job to the girls who have made it out to this years camp. And excellent job to those who have been coming since year one. Keep up the hard work, because the day you're out there under the Friday Night lights will be right around the corner in no time :)

I'd also like to add that I MISSSSS MY BOYFRIEND x 9868478743926141422 .

I've lost my mind.

But there's no doubt it's somewhere around here.
I've lost my mind and found it seconds later.
And seconds later I lost it again.
There's no doubt.

I haven't posted in more than a week and It has been driving me crazy. Let me start by saying that my hard drive crashed and I had to wait the whole weekend. So now I have less than a week to get my homework done. And football season is starting up again. And I cannot wait till school. I'm more than excited. But all of this is besides the point.

I keep losing my mind, my sense of control and my ability to think things through. I mean I don't lose it for long, it's less than a second I can assure you. But, the thought of actually losing it so often kind of frightens me. I fall in and out of love in what seems like a blink of an eye. I stumble upon long lost friends. I hangout with people I never thought I'd be friends with and I just have been going back and forth between who I am, who I aspire to be, and who I was. I'm not sure if that makes any sense in your minds but I'm sure you'll understand by the end of this post. I guess you could say who you were lead up to who you currently are and who you currently are leads you to who you aspire to be.

I was a all around excellent student. I was super outgoing, yet timid at the same time. I was the little sister everyone of the boys liked. I could talk to anyone without being misunderstood or misinterpreted for being "flirtatious".

Now, I'm president of the class. I'm still and all round excellent student. I like sports way more. I'm super outgoing and can be super shy at unnecessary times. My mind is always open for new things. I've been taken for the past 4 years it seems like. I absolutely love cheerleading. I hangout with my friends all the time and I keep myself busy.

I'd like to keep being a great student. I'd like to open my mind to new things a bit more. I'd like to experience something new. I want to be a bit more reserved and think about college and my future a bit more also. I want to be more patient and just an overall more mature young lady.

I love this guy. He's cool. We learn a bit more about each other everyday, no lie. I'm not fibbing. We see each other everyday whether its for a second or for 12 hours it seems like. I'm not sure if I'm falling quite yet, because I've learned to keep my walls up for a longer period. I've been known to be a soft person. I take criticism from anyone and I don't lie to hurt peoples feelings, but I do stick up for myself. I'm just not ready to be hurt again. Not that I think he'll hurt me or anything. I'm just not very sure of myself. I'm quite indecisive. I guess we'll just have to keep going. Only the future holds the truth. I know I'll be losing my mind a lot soon.

School is starting up in less than 2 weeks (: I am so beyond excited. I guess you can say I'm "geeked". I cannot wait. I am a huge nerd. I love school. Being the president makes it even more better. I love the environment, I just love everything about it. It's wonderful. I should stop talking about it, before I get too worked up.

This is intense.

I'm going crazy, it's insane.
I've got my heart pouring out.
And there's many to blame.
Because I love my life a little too much.
I love the people in it, yeah such and such.
And I love what I've become (:

I've done so much since I last posted. And I feel a little behind. I feel like I've lost a friend, a beloved one at that. And it's a bit upsetting. But, I have regained my composer and I've came to realize who my real friends are. I absolutely love who I've been hanging out with lately. They keep me grounded. I don't usually list names on my blogs, because it's just something that shouldn't be on here. So you all know who you are. I've gone everywhere and back in the last five days. From egging houses to attending Outbreak. Too much in so little time.

My relationship with him has been beyond phenomenal. I love getting to know this kid. I love him unquestionably. He just makes me super happy. I don't think I can make it sound anymore blunt, but it's true. Don't think we're always happy, we're not that perfect. We have those cute fight, I really adore. I absolutely love his family. They're just so welcoming and nice. And I never thought I'd actually get to have a little sister. So now I've got a little brother and a little sister, who I'd like to add is a cheerleader. She's mighty cute boys and again let me add she is ridin' solo. Anyways this is beside the point. I went and watched Dyl wrestle at the Ohio State Fair on Sunday. He makes me nervous and my body gets this rush of uneasiness. But in the end I know he's good.

I've been spending a lot of time with different people lately. It's not that they're new or anything just not people I've usually hung out with a lot before. I'm liking how things are going. I enjoy hanging out with different people. I love life just a little bit more now. This helps me really understand who my true friends are. I'm getting the full grasp of the big picture. Everything is becoming slightly clearer. Like they all say your true friends are the ones that stay when everyone walks out. And as some people have been walking out of my life, more have been coming and I'm not sure if you'd count them as the ones that have stayed or new friends. It's a bit confusing. It's gonna have to be something I fathom upon.

I know this wasn't much of a blog, sorry.
Thank you Taylor Ayers, Shelby Revalee, Hannah Sewell, Taylor Napier, Alexus Jacobs, Corey Crabtree, and whoever else that has been close to me lately.

Sometimes there are obstacles.

And they make things a little bit more difficult.
Obstacles aren't set up for failure.
They want you to overcome them.


Lately, I've been quite moody. And somewhat agitated with everyone and everything. But at the end of the day I still have my friends and family. Oh, let's not forget Dylan.

Obstacles are put in front of us to help us. They're there because everyone knows you can hurdle right over it. And if there weren't any hindrances in life then wouldn't life be a bit too easy? Don't expect life to be simple. It doesn't come with directions and no one wins. And if you're expecting to come out alive, then I wish you good luck, because in the end we all die.

Do not set out to look for a perfect person. Where you can share a perfect relationship and everything will be all fine and dandy. Because that's never going to happen. And if you ever come upon a relationship like that then I'm going to tell you now that it's probably the most unhealthy relationship you're going to find. Every relationship has obstacles, complications, and impediments. And the goal is to withstand them. You've got to fight to be together. It's what love is all about. And if you find the fight worth it, I'm fairly sure that you're in love. You cannot give up. Also, do not believe that because you won the last battle that the war is over. You've got many more battles to come. Fighting them together brings you closer.

So the last two weeks have been wonderful. I've met a lot of new people. I've had a lot of fun. I couldn't have asked for anything more. I'm so very glad that James Dylan Napier came into my life. It's great. I'm not saying we're perfect but through my eyes I find our relationship to be quite flawless. And I absolutely love it. He's more than a spectacular boyfriend. It's only been about 2 weeks, and I'm happier than ever. I already love the kid. I mean this is a shocker. You'd think that after everything I've been through I would take the longest time to have those feelings again. I'm not "in love", so don't get me wrong. Do not twist my words. I'm sure that will take a long long long time. But as of right now I'm genuinely blissful.

Intense conversation.

With the one I love, the one I value.
I have never been so comfortable with someone so easily.

I love him to death already. Our prolonged night of intense conversation was very much needed and was a great start to a magnificent relationship. He makes me extremely jovial. I love how we can share almost everything without feeling too uneasy. He tends to put a smile on my face if not a silly one. There isn't any other boy who can make me feel this jubilant at the moment. I believe I have acquired a lot from our great conversation. I now understand that he does in fact care for me a lot. I never thought I'd encounter another person who could effortlessly capture my soul and warm my heart. You will hear me say that often, but it's certainly true. He's as genuine as a person can get. When I asked him the usual question everyone asks, "What have you done?" He was so hesitant to answer. And it made me laugh just a little. I was thinking in my head, "What is this boy ashamed of?" In the end he came out to be the most innocent of upcoming high school students, which made me beyond pleased. He made me smile. And he has kept that smile on my face ever since. I cannot help but to say "I love you," nonstop. I love that he's so easy to get a long with. He enjoys hanging out with my little brother, my only sibling. Which couldn't make me any more thrilled. And I love his family as well. It's just so easy to be his girlfriend. And I hope I make it as easy for him as well. I again am glad God has blessed me with an Angel I can call my boyfriend. I'm so grateful to be bless with such a wonderful person. He's like a talk glass of lemonade when it's hot on summer days. He's exactly what I need. He's soothing like the ocean rushing on the sand. He takes care of me. He helps be a better woman. And I thank you very much James Dylan Napier.



I went to The Outbreak Student Ministry today as I always do each Wednesday evening. There were more people there than usual. And it brought a smile upon my face. People my age are actually taking time out of their day to really praise the Lord; to actually learn more about Jesus. They could be doing anything, playing their Xbox, surfing the net, shopping, hanging out with their friends, do drugs, have sex, sleep. But, they decided to step it up and do something that is important. Something that is vital or should be a main essential in their life. And I would like to thank everyone who has been making this incredible decision. Good job guys. May god bless you all.

When we exchange words.

I can't take my mind off of him.
And My heart beats a little bit faster.
It's racing but it has no idea where the finish line is.

I've been my making my own decisions lately and I'm glad I made the last one. I feel overly prestigious for being able to be the one girl he wants to be with, the girl he desires. Am I being too dramatic? Are my feelings stupid? I think not. Anyone that knows me would know that he is my savior. He's my way out. The guy that came and swept me off my feet. I'm grateful that our feelings are mutual. I thought 2010 would be a horrendous year. Everything was going haywire, my mind was all jumbled and my heart was fried. As soon as I got saved and I sought for God's help not even weeks later did he grant me with an Angel. I'm glad that I finally found someone that makes me happy even when I'm mad. I'm glad I found someone that in so little time I could open my heart to, someone I can be myself around. Funny thing, we're a bit opposite. He's shy around people he might have to be around a lot. And I'm shy around people I'll never see again. He thinks a lot before he talks or takes action, and I only do during "important" times - we all know those times. This guy makes me beyond happy. He warms my heart, captures my soul, and makes me feel ecstatic. I don't ever recall being this happy to have someone new walk into my life. I thank God for this gift. By the way, James your voice is amazing. You have the power to sing me to sleep, make me laugh, and or just entertain me. I love it (: